*In the study of the William Talisker Inn drinking a glass of whiskey.*

It's good to be back at my Inn. Am a bit worse for wear after my recent unexpected trip back east. But I really had to go, when I received word from my cousin that a family member had taken seriously ill. And had ask for me to come. ( Read more... )

Well think I'm calling it an early night. After I'm more rested, will most likely go to one of Sunnydale's fine bars over the weekend. See what the latest buzz is around town, and get caught up with everything going on. I do hope that no new problems arise anytime soon. But with my luck, that may be a bit to much to hope for. Anyhow can worry about tomorrow when it comes. For now I'll just settle for a nice drink, and a good night's rest.

Current Mood: working

*At the William Talisker Inn. Grant is in his study drinking a glass of whiskey.*

Well another week in Sunnydale has just about come to an end. I do hope that everyone had a safe and happy St. Patrick's Day. As for me, things have been very stressful. Haven't been sleeping very well. Am still haunted by nightmares of past events I would rather forget. Must be due to work related stress, and worries over family and friends that I haven't had much chance to see in far too long. Will hopefully have better luck in the coming weeks and months. At least I hope so.

I've just been so bogged down with business matters lately. Including working on my tax returns due next month. And helping work on some muchly needed repairs around the old Inn. I really do need an assistant to help take on some of the responsibility of managing the Inn. To free me up to do other things, and let me have more free time to socialize more. Though may take some time to find the right person for the job. Seeing that most of the best and brightest usually seek employement far away from Sunnydale. Also with all the strange things occuring in the the area, makes it quite hard to keep hired maids, or groundskeepers for very long. But is a part of living in Sunnydale that most have come to accept. One just has to learn to work threw whatever difficulties may arise.

Anyway, at least the current guests staying at the Inn appear to be doing pretty good. Is better to be dealing with tax issues and home repairs, instead of mysterious deaths, or other supernatural weirdness around here. Only hope that things over the days, weeks, & months to come will go better than the past months for everyone.

Current Mood: cold

*In the study of the William Talisker Inn reading the news. Notices unusual reports of people bursting into song and dance throughout town. Lays down the paper. Thinks to self, "I'm glad that whatever is causing people in Sunnydale and some of my guests to act weird doesn't seem to be adversely affecting me. Cause not really feeling in the mood to sing." Just then music ques, "Oh crap," starts to sing*

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*Music stops*

Well guess things could be worse. At least I didn't sing some Disney song. Also glad nobody saw me do that. Would be embarrassing to start to sing or dance in front of JT or Sera. Maybe that's why their keeping to themself. Do hope they haven't had any embarrassing thing happen at school or in front of their friends. Sunnydale is always a unusual place to live, but musical's are even stranger than strange.

Anyway before I begin to sing I will survive or start to dance an irish jig. Think I'm going to have another drink. And thinking that a nice quiet vacation to someplace other than Sunnydale may be in order. Either that or going to my room for the next few days until things return to normal. Yes, first a drink, then can decide what to do next.

Current Mood: discontent

It's hard to believe that another year has come and gone. But if there's one thing I have experience at, it's holidays. Although usually most christmas's and new year eve's that I remember have been spent at whatever local bar I stumbled accross. Sometimes all one can do is drink away the lonliness. But this year I have a few less reasons to be sad. I have some good friends that I love dearly. And despite any small amount of stress they may cause, both Sera and JT truly have brought allot of happiness into my life. They've done so well at coping with the loss of their respective parents over the past year. Allot better than the self-destructive behavior I did as a youth. Both have been really good lately, and I'm honored to be their guardian and father figure. I only hope I can be the kind of parent figure that will do their parents proud. They both deserve nothing but the best that life has to offer.

In other news I and the kids received some really great gifts from our friends. Eva sent me some very lovely gifts. And the gift certificates to the music/bookstore for JT and Sera was something they liked allot as well. I really do hope that she and her boyfriend are having a wonderful holiday season. And do hope that the coming months and year brings only success and good times for them.

Also my beautiful friend Izzy stopped by in person to drop off some gifts for me, JT, and Sera. It was so great to see her again. And the 100 year old ventage scotch from scotland was a perfect gift for me, she really does know me a bit to well. JT was also happy to get another gift certificate to use at the local music store and Sera seemed very touched by the hannakah gift Izzy gave her. It really was kind of her to come out and visit us, and to leave us such great gifts. I'm very lucky to have met her this past year. And truly wish her well in everything she decides to do in the new year.

In terms of what I got everyone for Christmas. I got JT and Sera allot of cds and dvds to watch. Hopefully there enjoy the gifts, since given my age, really not sure what teens like in this day and age. Which is why I took a page out of some of my friends book, and also got them each a $100 gift certificates. Am sure they can find plenty of things that they find interesting. Also seeing that I was to lazy, and lacking much in the creativity department. I sent most of my friends that are still around gift certificates as well. But did send my cousin Barnabas, more traditional gifts including candles. And sent him a 1841 first edition of Jacques Boucher de Perthes classic work on social conditions and man's inhumanity to man. Am sure he'll enjoy that. Also I sent him a laptop. He really does need to get with the times and try to communicate via more than just mail that takes days to travel accross country.

Anyhow think I'm going to go off and drink a nice glass of scotch now. Hopefully I'll be able to get out and about town to enjoy the new years celebrations that will no doubt take place. And if I had but one Christmas wish, it would be for the new year to bring with it nothing but happiness and good fortune for all my friends and family. I truly hope that 2005 is the best year ever.

Current Mood: thoughtful

After what seems like months of total chaos and confusion around Sunnydale. It looks like things are finally returning to normal. Allot of those whom left town for their own safety are now returning. Including JT & Sera whom were staying with the Trejos family. I'm glad that they was able to avoid all the recent problems. But it really is great to have them back at the Inn. The place just wasn't the same without them around. So I'm glad that Sunnydale's recent demon problems have ended. Now hopefully everyone will be able to get back to normal.

On the things returning to normal note, school is starting back on Monday. So JT and Sera will be headed back to school, which I'm sure there not to happy about. But at least their get to see their friends again. They along with everyone in Sunnydale deserves some peace and normalcy. So hopefully things will go allot better from here on out.

Current Mood: good

This has been quite an interesting summer to say the least. Especially the past few weeks have been really good. I love Sunnydale this time of year. And things around the Inn have been going very well. JT has been rather scarce, said he's been going to the library. But I really doubt him becoming all serious about learning and education. Is probably just pretending in an attempt to keep me out of his hair. So not sure what trouble he's up too. As for Sera, not to sure what is happening with her either. But does seem to be in a rather bad mood recently. She must be going through a rebellious phase I guess or PMS. Either way think its best not to know. As long as her and JT don't cause any trouble for me, they can do whatever they want. Are almost adults, and need to be treated as such. So am sure they can take care of themselves.

Anyway I've decided not to worry about everything so much. Brooding hasn't got me anywhere. Finally after what has seemed like years of wondering through the fog, things have finally become allot clearer. I'm forgetting about all the problems I've had in the past. Am going to just live in the here and now, and not worry about what happened yesterday, or what might happen tomorrow.

Of course speaking of yesterday, I was finally able to get out for a little while and enjoy the dubious pleasures that Sunnydale has to offer. Don't know why I haven't been out more often. Although really don't think I'll have to go very far to find some pleasure in the foreseeable future. Seeing that a very beautiful and very dangerous lady is only a room away from my Master Bedroom.

Is hard to believe that I never noticed how irresistible my lovely friend Astra is. For some reason I thought that she was unavailable. But she obviously isn't in a relationship with anyone at this time. Thus is hopefully available for a good time. So I will certainly be looking forward to see what happens next with her.

Current Mood: mischievous

Clearly a person can't even go to a housewarming party without something crazy happening in Sunnydale. Not that it wasn't a good party. I've had worse party going experiences. Wasn't any torture with hot pokers. And isn't like I haven't lost my memory before. This time was allot less painful than getting hit by a car. And Eva was a wonderful hostess. Her new home is clearly one of the most interesting old Mansion's in the area.

Of course all of Eva's guest losing their memory due to someones wacky spell made for a very confusing few days. I would rather forget some of the things I done without my memory. Just lucky I didn't do anything really stupid like hit on some of my lovely friends. ( Read more... )

Perhaps one good thing did come from being memoryless the past days. Do have to say that not having any memory of my past did actually lift a great weight from my shoulders. Felt pretty good not to have any regrets or remorse for a little while. Perhaps would be the best not to remember somethings. But guess is the best to remember everything, the good and the bad. If for no other reason than to learn from ones mistakes and avoid doing them again.

But now that my memory is back, I remember again that I have responsibilities. Can't just go running around partying or going to gentlemen clubs. Uh, not that I done any partying or gone to any gentleman clubs.

Anyway, I know now that the most important priority I have is to focus on being a good father figure to Sera and JT. I am sorry for any stress my recent condition placed upon them. They need to try to enjoy the rest of their summer, and not worry about me or anything else. Can only hope that if more craziness is going to happen, that it won't happen for a long time. Just looking for a boring and peaceful month to come. Course living in Sunnydale, is doubtful if things will ever be normal. But I'm still hoping for the best none the less.

Current Mood: guilty
Current Music: "Memories" by Elvis

Today was just another day to me. Wouldn't have even knowed that it was Father's Day if not for someone on tv mentioning it.

I know that today can't be a good reminder to JT or Sera either. They've lost their parents, so don't have anyone but me. I know I can't be their father, can only try to be their friend, and help them anyway I can. Really don't think I've done too good of a job as of yet. But am doing my best.

As far as what Father's Day means to me. Is just one of those reminders of a past I would rather forget. I was such a fool when I was young, living in the moment. And not worrying about the consequences of my actions. Of course I never had a father myself. Never had someone to set a good example of what a Man should be.

I never knew how to be a good boyfriend, husband, or father. The biggest regret I have is not being there for my family, for my kids. And not being a positive influence on those I met. But really can't change the past. If I could, I would. But all I can do is learn from the past, and try to live. Try to be a good man, and try to do right by my family and friends now.

But for tonight, just think that I need to be alone. Have a few drinks. Will worry about tomorrow when it comes.

Current Mood: exanimate

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Current Mood: awake

*Is drinking a glass of whiskey in the parlor of his Inn.*

JT and Sera seem to be enjoying their summer break so far. Are usually off doing their own thing, so not really sure what their up too. But as long as they stay out of trouble, then are free to spend time with their friends. Am happy that things are going so well for them. Can only hope that this is the best summer they ever had.

I do hope things are going good for my friends, especially Izzy. I'm truly sorry that our relationship didn't work out. She's such a wonderful woman. From the moment we first met, I knowed that I didn't deserve such an amazing lady as her. I'm just grateful that she still wants to be my friend.

How anyone could have a long lasting relationship on the Hellmouth is beyond my understanding. At least for me its an impossibility, since I'm cursed for all eternity. Is for the best that I try to avoid any romantic entanglements. Friendships and family have to come before my own needs.

Speaking of friends, I haven't been out much lately. I've just been to depressed to do much as of late. Thus not sure how things are going for my friends. So I really do need to head back down to Ralph's and catch up on the current happenings around town. And of course have a drink or two as well.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Yesterday by the Beatles